Rusamel1, 44

I was previously married 3 times with 4 children out of my previous relationships. 2 children living with me after a court battle,I see 1 my youngest son every fourth night for 5 days, I am hoping to have him back permanently through court.

my eldest daughter is ed by her dad to Turkey after our relationship ended, I'm hoping to have her back when she is 18 years old, she'll be 16 in April.

I am originally from The Gambia west coast of Africa. I am now permanently living in Scotland Edinburgh for 15 years. I would love to talk to nice people,find a partner if not looking for some who can help write a book about my life as I really had a very difficult life from childhood to adulthood and my written is not good to write it.

I am in situation where by the only option I have is write a story about my life to educate other people.

Because this is my life ,so far I've not been lucky with relationship,I can't have education to improve my life and I can't work either and this is because of how people around me created this kind of life for me which is not fair as I am a very honest, genuine,trustworthy, care ,loving who respects every human being.

On top on all this even some professionals who should support me are also the one who rejected me.I got to a stage where I had to stop crying and start handling my situation sensibly on my own.

The only thing that hurts me is I'm not in a position to pursue my dreams or provide for my children as I am in and out of court fighting to get all my children back. I managed to get 2 back .

Each an everyone of my ex partners had to use my children as a weapon or a way to punish me just because of our relationship ended. I don't deserve this neither does my children deserve to be treated that way.

I welcome anyone who want to talk me as I want the whole world to learn from my experience as no one deserves to live this kind of life or to be treated unfairly. Thanks for taking your time to read my profile